Why I’m Choosing to Scare Myself in 2020


So, you’re sitting on your couch eating a bowl of chips and chugging your way into 2020. Don’t be embarrassed, that was me to a tee. (Twinsies?) As 2019 (finally) came to an end, I reflected on my year in review. What did I actually do?

I completed my capstone project, got an internship, moved to my favorite state, finished a 35 paged research paper, started hiking, graduated with my Bachelor’s degree, went through 120 job applications, found a job, found my sweet boyfriend, and finally started my blog.

In my eyes, this doesn’t seem like a lot. There are people I went to high school with that are on the verge of being famous. And me? Well, I’m just kind of flying through life by the seat of my pants. The only thing I’m actually regretting is: did I even do anything that scares me?

I’m not talking about conquering my fears and jumping out of an airplane into a forest of snakes and landing into a lake full of spiders. That’s not my intent here. What I’m asking myself is, “What did I do to drag myself out of my comfort zone that made me a better person? What risks did I take? What internal fears did I conquer?”

For me, my something scary in 2019 was moving to a different state, where I knew absolutely no one. I miss my family and friends back in Iowa, but I’m so glad I did something that scared me. Where would I be if I hadn’t taken that chance?

2020 is going to be a lot more of this. No regrets. I want to be able to say that I conquered the little things this year. Internally with myself, and physically out in the world. Do something that makes you uncomfortable this year. It can be anything big or small. Something that’s going to drive you out of your comfort zone and into that stellar self you want to become this year.

I’m going to challenge myself to do something that scares me every month, and I challenge you to do the same.

What will you do?

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